Divorce Bites
I spoke to Michael tonight and we have calmly decided to divorce. I have the first part of the paperwork needed to fill out-a sad task I do not look forward to completing. Once signed by the both of us, I will go before the judge (he is signing a waiver to contest) and it will be final in 30 days.
Michael's thoughts and feelings about me seem to change with the wind - from time to time he will tell me he missed me and wants very much to be with me again and just two nights ago he told me I looked great in my new photos and suggestd that once he's situated in his new apartment in LA we can go live with him there - but more often than not, he seems to be happy to be living a bachelors life, (sex, drugs and rock and roll) I am pretty sure once it's over he will feel a sense of relief more than anything. I however, am crushed. He's meant more to me than any man alive. But he's been gone almost a year and offers no promise of return. And right now, the thought of being with Jay or anyone else on planet earth, no matter how wonderful they may be, does my heart little consolation.
"You're 100% entitled to a divorce", the attorney informed me. "On the grounds of abandonment and incompatibilty. If he tries to contest it, we'll take him for everything he's got."
"He hasn't got anything", I sighed. "And the only thing I every wanted he won't give me." His love. "This doesn't need to be ugly. I don't want to hurt him. I just want us to be able to move on in good conscience."
Good comfort is another thing. Right now I feel like I could die.
Michael's thoughts and feelings about me seem to change with the wind - from time to time he will tell me he missed me and wants very much to be with me again and just two nights ago he told me I looked great in my new photos and suggestd that once he's situated in his new apartment in LA we can go live with him there - but more often than not, he seems to be happy to be living a bachelors life, (sex, drugs and rock and roll) I am pretty sure once it's over he will feel a sense of relief more than anything. I however, am crushed. He's meant more to me than any man alive. But he's been gone almost a year and offers no promise of return. And right now, the thought of being with Jay or anyone else on planet earth, no matter how wonderful they may be, does my heart little consolation.
"You're 100% entitled to a divorce", the attorney informed me. "On the grounds of abandonment and incompatibilty. If he tries to contest it, we'll take him for everything he's got."
"He hasn't got anything", I sighed. "And the only thing I every wanted he won't give me." His love. "This doesn't need to be ugly. I don't want to hurt him. I just want us to be able to move on in good conscience."
Good comfort is another thing. Right now I feel like I could die.
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